calm before the storm...
I know I just posted and mentioned how I haven't felt much like writing lately... it's true. I haven't felt much like doing anything. I'm definitely reaching that place in my life where I'm ready for some big changes. In the past, this has meant moving to a new city, and finding a new job. I just don't know if I want to continue that pattern or not.
Being in northern California for almost six years makes it officially my record for staying in the same place for the longest amount of time. (with the exception of Joplin where I lived until I was 14) I didn't even live in Kansas City for this long. You would think that I would feel like this is my home. Funny, now that I think about it... I really don't.
Swampie was asking me questions today about how I would feel if I just traveled non-stop and had no home... would I be able to keep from going insane. I told her that I could certainly do that. She said she couldn't do it, that she would have to have some place to return to that would keep her grounded. I can't say I've ever felt that way. As long as I'm relatively healthy and able to pay for my expenses, I can be anywhere. I'd love to travel more. I've always envied those people that backpack across Europe with no plan, no money, no where in particular to go or be.
I guess I'm not really meant to have a 'home' as such. I guess home is where you feel comfortable, and I try to take that reliance onto myself. I can be comfortable anywhere. I have no fear of moving on or change. I guess most people do have that fear of change.
Things are brewing up terribly at work. I don't know what is going to happen, and while I normally welcome changes, I know the changes ahead are not good. I know that things are about to become absolutely unbearable. We shall see very soon. My boss has a meeting that directly affects my future in the morning. The guy lobbying to become my supervisor hasn't even bothered to meet me. I can't believe the audacity and disrespect that people get away with. It's not only tolerated, it's encouraged!
Oh well, like I always say... "I was looking for a job when I found this one." I'll make out ok. I really want to open a pet store in the Fairfield area. I've seen the competition.... I can do it bigger, better, and definitely cleaner than they can.
Clouds are coming this way... both atmospherically and figuratively. Gotta find my umbrella...
Being in northern California for almost six years makes it officially my record for staying in the same place for the longest amount of time. (with the exception of Joplin where I lived until I was 14) I didn't even live in Kansas City for this long. You would think that I would feel like this is my home. Funny, now that I think about it... I really don't.
Swampie was asking me questions today about how I would feel if I just traveled non-stop and had no home... would I be able to keep from going insane. I told her that I could certainly do that. She said she couldn't do it, that she would have to have some place to return to that would keep her grounded. I can't say I've ever felt that way. As long as I'm relatively healthy and able to pay for my expenses, I can be anywhere. I'd love to travel more. I've always envied those people that backpack across Europe with no plan, no money, no where in particular to go or be.
I guess I'm not really meant to have a 'home' as such. I guess home is where you feel comfortable, and I try to take that reliance onto myself. I can be comfortable anywhere. I have no fear of moving on or change. I guess most people do have that fear of change.
Things are brewing up terribly at work. I don't know what is going to happen, and while I normally welcome changes, I know the changes ahead are not good. I know that things are about to become absolutely unbearable. We shall see very soon. My boss has a meeting that directly affects my future in the morning. The guy lobbying to become my supervisor hasn't even bothered to meet me. I can't believe the audacity and disrespect that people get away with. It's not only tolerated, it's encouraged!
Oh well, like I always say... "I was looking for a job when I found this one." I'll make out ok. I really want to open a pet store in the Fairfield area. I've seen the competition.... I can do it bigger, better, and definitely cleaner than they can.
Clouds are coming this way... both atmospherically and figuratively. Gotta find my umbrella...
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